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Showing posts with label friends. Show all posts

Monday, May 16, 2016

Stretched

This morning, I'm going to let you in on a little secret, I'm an INTROVERT, in all caps. Growing up, I mostly fought it, despised it, cursed it, but once I became an adult, out of school, not forced to embrace people all the time, I learned to be okay with who I really was, embrace it even. As an adult, I decided when and with whom, I wanted to socialize. It's been lovely all these years, completely lovely, until now that is.


God has decided that I need to learn to embrace people more, so into the fire I've been thrown, noooooo. I've argued my case with Him, to no avail I should say, so in the fire I stay. The cause, I'm the mama of two teenage girls. All you mama's out there are going to recognize this dilemma I've unwittingly fallen into, it's called teens like socializing, and it's so uncomfortable for me, which gets us right back to why God has thrown me into the fire. I don't understand the why part, but He obviously didn't agree with me that I was just fine in my own little tiny corner of the universe???  I thought it was all kinds of awesome, He thinks differently, shoot.


So, here lately I've found myself, socializing at multiple proms, having too many sleepovers to count, hosting cookouts with no less than fifteen teens, have I lost my ever-lovin' mind?, chauffeuring around teens, mine and others, to various local events, many late nights with kids and their parents at local eateries celebrating this and that, really Lord, are you kidding me???? My daughters, mercy how I love y'all, but you're killing me!

All you regular, sociable folks out there won't get this at all, but for the rest of you, this is hard! So hard, in fact that I shut down completely from the toll it takes on me mentally, which may explain why I disappear from this blog at times. Sound crazy?  It feels crazy inside my head, and the struggle is real my friends, but for whatever reason, God wants me uncomfortable right now and if I could see the big picture like He can, I'm sure I'd totally get it, but right now, little ole me is treading water struggling to keep from drowning.


So back to the title, stretched, where are you right now? Is God giving you a makeover too, stretching and pulling you in all directions? It hurts doesn't it? Believe me honey, I know how it hurts. I have to remind myself daily how it's all for something good, and it will be revealed in His time, not mine, but doggone it's hard. If you're struggling with change today, I'm right there with you sista, you are not alone.
xo,
Amy {CEO Introverts Unite}


Friday, April 17, 2015

Nothing And Everything


Blogging can be a whole bunch of pressure if allowed to be. It quite honestly can take over my every day. Before I began blogging, I really never gave it any thought. I would spend my evenings perusing some of my favorite blogs and I'd gather inspiration from one, and add a new recipe to my Pinterest board from another, and then learn a new painting technique from yet another. I never really gave any of it much thought, how much time these women were putting into making these posts for my entertainment and growth, and many of them, get little to no pay for all their time and effort. They do it because they enjoy it. Then, a year ago, I joined the many thousands of women bloggers. Those crazy women that actually enjoy sharing and inspiring and teaching and growing other women for no other reason than the fact that it just feels right. It is their calling



I love having this little space to write about the real, and painful and inspiring parts of my everyday life. During this depression season of mine, it has been really hard to keep writing at times. Sometimes on Sunday, I sit there staring at my keyboard with no thoughts flowing at all, not a single one. I allow myself to be afraid and worry that maybe, that's it, maybe I have nothing left to say. But when that desperation arrives, He always whispers something inside of me at just the right moment and my thoughts begin to race faster than I can write them all down. 



So this is a post about nothing and everything. It's a post about how sometimes I am empty, then He inspires me and refills me. It's about how grateful I am that I have you all in my life when I need you most. When you comment on a post, it does matter, hugely. I do read EVERY single one and I do smile EVERY time I see a new comment in my Inbox because it lets me know that I'm not alone and that you do care. So thank you, each and every one of you. You have all made such an impact in my life. I wish I could just hug each of you {that's not too creepy, is it?}


Have a blessed weekend y'all!


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Wednesday, March 18, 2015

And Joy Comes In The Morning


I cannot even begin to tell y'all how full my heart is right now. After Monday's post on my depression journey, I'm overwhelmed by all the support from so many of y'all. I know that there are many folks that struggle just like me and it breaks my heart. So many of you mentioned, "and joy comes in the morning", and I kept playing it over and over in my mind. It's so true. God is faithful and has promised us 'new mornings'.




Today, I'm moving on as best I can and giving y'all a little peek into some of the things in my life right now that are my saving grace. 




I'm an animal person, always have been, an urban farm-girl at heart. I haven't talked about my chickens in a great while and some of you new friends may not know that we have quite a few free rangers over here, not to mention lots of cats, dogs and cows. 


Now that the days are warmer, I spend the evenings outside crawling around on the ground taking pictures of these little critters that bring me such joy. Thank you Lord for the critters. 




It's quite a funny farm over here, but I love it, fills me with so much happiness. Today I'm wishing y'all a joy-filled day and so many thanks for all the love.

Monday, March 16, 2015

Here I Go Again {my depression journey}

Last week, I announced this little blogs one year anniversary and I got so many wonderful comments from y'all. Someone asked about my depression journey and since I'm currently struggling with that, I thought I'd answer that question today.



If you've been around here for a while, you know that I struggle with depression. It is always there, but sometimes I overcome, sometimes not. I know that there are lots of you out there that will totally get where I'm coming from, I know that I'm not alone. I suffer seasonally also, the worst being in the winter. Even though I planned and planned starting way back last fall, how to actively derail my winter depression, the beast still arrived. I am hugely grateful that it showed up late this year. I noticed about four weeks ago, that something was changing inside of me and that I felt heavy and not so joy-filled any more. It's subtle, each day a little darker than the one before, the struggle harder each day to fake that you're okay to family and friends. Finally, the struggle is too great, and there's no way to hide it.



So what do my days look like? Stagnate. All desire to refresh our home- gone. It's still full on winter here and will be until this fog  lifts. I go into survival mode, only doing enough laundry so we're not roaming the streets naked, cooking sad, barely passable meals {not even sure you can call them meals}, no  baking to speak of, as little cleaning as I can get by with. Life as I know it, vanishes


I'm so grateful to have daughters that are so capable and can pitch in and fill in the gaps. They can both cook and bake and clean and help out with laundry, such a gift. I'm grateful for friends that meet me right where I am, right in the middle of my mess. They invite me out, somewhere, anywhere, and it really helps to get out of the house because this house is a constant reminder that somethings not right. Y'all , it's kind of a mess around here and getting out is such a good thing for me and these kiddos. It's so comforting to be loved by others, it really is.



So life looks hugely different right now, but it's okay. I know that this is only a season, and in this season of survival mode, my eyes are opened to what is really necessary and what's most important. Without all the busyness of fluffing this nest, crafting away and entertaining others, I can be quiet and prayerful, meditative, enjoy long walks, those things that often fall by the wayside in regular times. Spending more time without distractions with my kids is another perk. Yes, even in darkness, there are perks. My focus shifts during depression but that's not necessarily a bad thing, for there's a season for all things



I guess I'm learning to be grateful in the midst of the darkness. So life looks different, does it matter, not really. It's just different. So our house isn't picture perfect, big whoop, so we eat lots of scrambled eggs and toast, for  dinner,  so I'm wearing dirty socks and haven't changed the sheets on our bed in like 
f-o-r-e-v-e-r, so I wear mostly yoga pants {aka, glorified pajama bottoms} everywhere I go, does it really matter, nope, I don't think it does. 



The good news is, I think I'm making my way toward the end, I can feel little moments of joy peeking through, little bursts of happiness. It'll be gone soon, whew! And in case you're wondering what these pictures have to do with my depression, absolutely nothing, these are just a few of the things that are making me smile right now, so I thought they fit in nicely. 

Bless your heart if you suffer too, you're not alone. Is your house a mess? Are you eating grits for dinner every night while wearing dirty socks? Welcome friend, welcome, this is a place of understanding. 

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Friday, January 30, 2015

Weekday Ramblings


Here's a little of what's making me happy and keeping me inspired this week- thought I'd share! 


<> This lady inspires me so much and brings me such joy with her photos.






<> I'm thinking that this Earthquake Cake looks way too easy and yummy not to make!





<> This post on Emily's blog has forever changed how I see my closet!




<> I've just added this book to my wishlist. Can't wait to order it!




 And while I was on my little rabbit trail finding it, I stumbled upon this book that came out in 2013 that I never ordered. Why not? She's so right up my alley y'all. It's now in my cart too!



<> My latest crush- I want a vintage spoon from Jessica's shop. She has the cutest stuff!





Wishing you a weekend filled with all kinds of awesome!


Friday, January 23, 2015

Home {aka your mission field}



Have you ever given much thought to how your home appears to others. Don't get me wrong, I know that our homes should reflect us and we should never design our homes for others, but how does your home feel to others? Is your home chaotic and out of order? I really struggle with balance in this area. It can be really hard to have a home that is just clean enough or just orderly enough. 

Our church has a little sign that you pass when leaving the parking lot that has always intrigued me. It says, "you are now entering your mission field". That's so true isn't it? Everything after leaving the church really is our mission field. I don't have a fancy career or letters after my name, but I do have a home that was given to us by God, and I think it is my calling for that home to be my mission field, not only to my family, but to others as well.

I want our home to reflect that, to be a place where others can come and seek respite if necessary or unload their troubles or just drink coffee and giggle lots. This blog is an extension of our home. I've just come to realize this. I welcome y'all into our home and into my heart through each post I write.

Consider your home your mission field and be amazed at the changes you may make. 

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Wednesday, November 26, 2014

Happy Thanksgiving



Today and tomorrow, I'll be taking some time off to prepare a wonderful feast for my friends and family. Wishing you a joy-filled Thanksgiving in your home and hoping that your day is filled with simple pleasures that come from spending time with those near and dear to your heart. Blessings from our family to yours! See y'all Friday morning when we'll begin the Christmas season here on this little farm. 



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