Monday, May 16, 2016

Stretched

This morning, I'm going to let you in on a little secret, I'm an INTROVERT, in all caps. Growing up, I mostly fought it, despised it, cursed it, but once I became an adult, out of school, not forced to embrace people all the time, I learned to be okay with who I really was, embrace it even. As an adult, I decided when and with whom, I wanted to socialize. It's been lovely all these years, completely lovely, until now that is.


God has decided that I need to learn to embrace people more, so into the fire I've been thrown, noooooo. I've argued my case with Him, to no avail I should say, so in the fire I stay. The cause, I'm the mama of two teenage girls. All you mama's out there are going to recognize this dilemma I've unwittingly fallen into, it's called teens like socializing, and it's so uncomfortable for me, which gets us right back to why God has thrown me into the fire. I don't understand the why part, but He obviously didn't agree with me that I was just fine in my own little tiny corner of the universe???  I thought it was all kinds of awesome, He thinks differently, shoot.


So, here lately I've found myself, socializing at multiple proms, having too many sleepovers to count, hosting cookouts with no less than fifteen teens, have I lost my ever-lovin' mind?, chauffeuring around teens, mine and others, to various local events, many late nights with kids and their parents at local eateries celebrating this and that, really Lord, are you kidding me???? My daughters, mercy how I love y'all, but you're killing me!

All you regular, sociable folks out there won't get this at all, but for the rest of you, this is hard! So hard, in fact that I shut down completely from the toll it takes on me mentally, which may explain why I disappear from this blog at times. Sound crazy?  It feels crazy inside my head, and the struggle is real my friends, but for whatever reason, God wants me uncomfortable right now and if I could see the big picture like He can, I'm sure I'd totally get it, but right now, little ole me is treading water struggling to keep from drowning.


So back to the title, stretched, where are you right now? Is God giving you a makeover too, stretching and pulling you in all directions? It hurts doesn't it? Believe me honey, I know how it hurts. I have to remind myself daily how it's all for something good, and it will be revealed in His time, not mine, but doggone it's hard. If you're struggling with change today, I'm right there with you sista, you are not alone.
xo,
Amy {CEO Introverts Unite}


6 comments:

  1. Yup. I so relate to what you have said. Doing what is good for our teens is often the opposite of what we want or are comfortable with. Keep up the hard work. Thanks for sharing.

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    1. Yep, this parenting gig is hard isn't it?! Thanks for popping in this morning!

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  2. I understand and relate completely. I have a seven year old that believes that we should make our presence known at every birthday and any other event we are invited to. Geez, the things we do for our kids. :)

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  3. My kids are 23 and 25 and both facing HUGE decisions right now that are certainly pulling out of our comfort zones. I completely get your "pain". Hang in there and make sure that you do take time for you... :)

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  4. Amy, I'm such an introvert, I don't socialize for weeks sometimes and only then, because of my daughters and my husband who make me. Right now at this moment, I have my husbands family staying with us for two weeks, this one is a hard one, they are lovely, it's me the one who is so "strange". I need a two or three week~indoors~to~myself~treat after this!

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  5. LOVE your comment, totally IN love with your comment! I can tell that you really do get it! Introverts Unite Katrin and good luck with those in-laws! Hugs friend!

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