Monday, March 14, 2016

Down The Rabbit Hole


It seems that I've taken an unexpected, unplanned blogging break. Life, it's always full of surprises!

As moms, we don't get sick days or time off. We are always on the job. Last Wednesday, life as I know it, ended. I went to sleep Tuesday night just fine, and woke up Wednesday morning with a pinched nerve. It was as if I fell down the rabbit hole. All the things that had filled my days, were now overshadowed by pain.

I now have a huge respect for those of you out there that live with chronic pain, bless your hearts. On day number six, I waved the white flag and sought medical intervention, the pain was just too much to bear. It seems that there's not a clear cut treatment plan for a pinched nerve, only many, many different opinions. Choosing the right path has been extremely confusing, as I think I've figured out, there is no right path, just opinions, ughhhhhhhh. Now, if you notice that this post seems a little wonky and has lots of misspellings, hey, I can blame the meds {wink}!

So with all my free time, I began thinking about y'all, especially y'all that have to deal with a chronic condition of any kind. How strong you must be. I began to realize that I take my health for granted every single day. What's that saying?, you never know what you've got till it's gone.

I'm a firm believer that all things happen for a reason and that all things are for our good, whether it seems so or not. If there is a lesson I need to learn, I pray that I get it now, so that God doesn't have to bring it before me again, in an even mightier way. God, let me learn it now! And sometimes, the lesson is not for me at all, but someone close to me needs to learn through my suffering. For the past thirteen days, I've proudly watched my family come together to take over my usual duties. I've watched my daughters take charge of cooking, baking, and cleaning. Maybe the only way for them to truly learn how to take charge of a household was if I was completely out of the way. With me always hovering, well, lets just say that I may be a bit of a control freak and I really have a hard time delegating. With me on the sidelines, my family has been able to soar without my interfering assistance.

I found this little poem{hymn} as I was reading..........

A Little Bird I Am
A little bird I am,
Shut from the fields of air;
And in my cage I sit and sing
To Him who placed me there;
Well pleased a prisoner to be
Because, my God, it pleases Thee.

Nought have I else to do;
I sing the whole day long;
And He whom most I love to please,
Doth listen to my song;
He caught and bound my wandering wing,
But still he bends to hear me sing.
Thou hast an ear to hear;
A heart to love and bless;
And, though my notes were e’er so rude,
Thou wouldst not hear them less:
Because Thou knowest, as they fall,
That LOVE, sweet LOVE, inspires them all.
My cage confines me round;
Abroad I cannot fly;
But though my wing is closely bound,
My heart’s at liberty.
My prison walls cannot control
The flight, the freedom of the soul.

Oh! It’s good to soar
These bolts and bars above,
To Him whose purpose I adore,
Whose providence I love;
And in Thy mighty will to find
The joy, the freedom of the mind.

                             -Jeanne Guyon

For you all that may be suffering today, my prayers are with you.

xo,
Amy


8 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry to hear this! I can empathize, however. I have had a "frozen shoulder" for over a year now. Doctors say it is possibly hormonal and "may" go away on its own. It's the most incredible pain I have ever experienced--including childbirth! I, too, have thought a lot about people who suffer with pain for years and wonder how they cope. I hope you get better quickly!!!

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    1. Shannon, I had no idea about your shoulder. I'm so, so sorry! I don't know if it makes me feel better to know that others are dealing with pain too and I'm not alone, or that it just breaks my heart that others are dealing with pain too. It truly is an awful place to be in, wouldn't wish it on anyone. You'll be in my prayers!

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  2. As someone who has been dealing with low back/hip/leg/foot pain for well over two years now (and trying to get help for it throughout those two years), I'm sincerely sorry you're hurting! It can really take over your whole life when your day in and day out is so overshadowed with pain. It can rule you not only physically, but emotionally as well. I hope you find some relief soon and are back to good!! Sending you lots of positive thoughts. :)

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    1. I didn't even know, I'm so sorry April! The pain is one thing but how the meds make me feel is even worse I'm afraid. That's my least favorite part of this whole thing! Thanks for stopping by and I'll have you in my prayers!

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  3. Many prayers for you Amy! I hope you find relief soon!

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    1. Thank you so much for stopping by for a visit! Well wishes are absolutely the best medicine!

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    2. Last year, I went through a similar situation. I had a herniated disk and it was pinching off the sciatic nerve. For 8 months the NP would not allow me to get an MRI. I finally switched docs and got MRI in one day. My Catholic faith has taught me about redemptive suffering and the value that it has. We can unite our sufferings with Jesus's on the cross. he actually allows us to participate and enter into His Cross. It is a very special mystery most of the saints were allowed to understand. It is like you said also an opportunity for those around us to serve and receive special graces!!! I hope you get better soon and I will be praying for you and your family!

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  4. Prayers and good thoughts sent your way for a speedy recovery.

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